Monday, September 15, 2008
bad day / 6:18 AM
grrrrrrrr. Going for chem tuition just made my day worse. I felt very annoyed at the paper. Im stressed out, and on the brink of dispair. I dont suppose the music blasting by my bro with the radio makes me any happier either. SI-
Okay, I shant start it again.
Sigh. dont ask me why I lost my patience with chem, I never do. Not in a mood to study I guess. Anyhow, I feel some compulsion to read harry potter books all of a sudden... guess I should spend more time confiding with friends and spend some quality time with myself and just ignore this world. Sometimes asking and receiving doesnt exactly work. People whom I want to be be there for me are not there, instead others would. Some miracle.
I can imagine myself venting my frustration on a bottle of water, screaming into it would just do me some good. Maybe later I should do it... (:
Today got back results for chem paper one... a depressing 18/30. I was expecting more. After school went home did chem again... then just now had chem tuition, i think thats the reason why im so frustrated with the subject- had ENOUGH of it in a day. Plus the fact that I DIDNT HAVE A GOOD SLEEP last night, got me all grumpy like an old lady today I bet.
And today I was still daydreaming about the movie I watched yesterday... really sweet movie, wished reality were like that, HA! too good to be true. Anyway, maybe later today shall continue the other movie I started yesterday but didnt manage to complete- 'my super ex-girlfriend'. ahahah. (: I think I would feel better if I do that, feminism makes a woman feel good (temporarily), soon after reality sinks in again. yepp. sad life.
Now need to do GP tuition essay... : / and later in the night have to complete 1.5 sums of math for tmr. and I dont feel like going online cause I just feel like isolating myself.
Maybe someday I would explode, but in the meantime,
cheer up vaness!
Okay, I shant start it again.
Sigh. dont ask me why I lost my patience with chem, I never do. Not in a mood to study I guess. Anyhow, I feel some compulsion to read harry potter books all of a sudden... guess I should spend more time confiding with friends and spend some quality time with myself and just ignore this world. Sometimes asking and receiving doesnt exactly work. People whom I want to be be there for me are not there, instead others would. Some miracle.
I can imagine myself venting my frustration on a bottle of water, screaming into it would just do me some good. Maybe later I should do it... (:
Today got back results for chem paper one... a depressing 18/30. I was expecting more. After school went home did chem again... then just now had chem tuition, i think thats the reason why im so frustrated with the subject- had ENOUGH of it in a day. Plus the fact that I DIDNT HAVE A GOOD SLEEP last night, got me all grumpy like an old lady today I bet.
And today I was still daydreaming about the movie I watched yesterday... really sweet movie, wished reality were like that, HA! too good to be true. Anyway, maybe later today shall continue the other movie I started yesterday but didnt manage to complete- 'my super ex-girlfriend'. ahahah. (: I think I would feel better if I do that, feminism makes a woman feel good (temporarily), soon after reality sinks in again. yepp. sad life.
Now need to do GP tuition essay... : / and later in the night have to complete 1.5 sums of math for tmr. and I dont feel like going online cause I just feel like isolating myself.
Maybe someday I would explode, but in the meantime,
cheer up vaness!
it's amazing. amzing how people change
I know we change bit by bit everyday... like how in sec sch I do not have much craving for food, and now I totally do. hmmm. only thing is, it may be for the worse?
